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Listening to lil peep and red hot chili peppers.

Wondering about How deep can one actually love someone else.

If we break all the components of love as given to us by: Dewald:

understanding, trust, & acceptance.

How deep can we delve into these in our personal relationships  & romantic relationships.

If i can gather my thoughts here.

communication is absolutely vital, and the ability to express yourselves  preferably in mother tong or otherwise. Where information or consciencous flows with the least resistance... this is a great space to be in with another entity... human god... etc.

express (in any form) without the fear of judgement is freedom & paradise.

Loneliness & Addiction

 Diagnosed with Bipolar type 1 in 2013.

Bipolar I disorder is defined by manic episodes that last for at least 7 days (nearly every day for most of the day) or by manic symptoms that are so severe that the person needs immediate medical care. Usually, depressive episodes occur as well, typically lasting at least 2 weeks.

This blog is purely for my own therapy but may be of enjoyment/help to others. My writing will be terrible, at first of course.  

Another reason for this blog is for me to recognise triggers to my drug abuse as it seems to fluctuate in terms of severity. 

I will use drugs regularly some weeks and other weeks I will go without or with very little. Although very few days go without at least a bit of alcohol.

People with bipolar are generally  prone to risky behavior e.g. sex, drugs, high speed driving etc..  Anything to get them out of their head.

I have found this to be true. 

Cure to addiction

Apparently the cure to addiction is connection. This is something I have learned from Brandon Novak, an ex drug addict and now sober living guide.

I speculate that my drug use will lower with more connection with the "right" people. I use benzos when attending parties and always have  a drink.

Recently I have been doing exercise and cold water exposure. This seems to help as a good replacement to drug abuse.

But ultimately the cure to addiction is connection. Connection to other people. i.e. not being lonely.

We are social creatures by nature, but how to we  create and maintain meaningful relationships with others?

Creating connections

Finding the right people - new friends or romantic partners.  When I say right people these are people that are a net positive in your life. This is something that can be gauged in various ways. although I think a gut feel is probably sufficient.

Connecting with people. By definition that is talking, communicating with some manner.

information transfer from one entity to another.  

So let's take an example. A lonely person in New York in an apartment. How would such a person connect with new people.